Tag: growth

To Be Honest…

To be honest, I don’t always receive answers for my questions. I don’t always know if something worthwhile will come of my efforts. I don’t always feel heard. I don’t always feel valued. I don’t always feel secure. I’m not always sure.

To be honest, I don’t have some extremely enlightening thing to say tonight. This week has been incredibly difficult as I’ve strived to reach goals I’ve set for myself or standards I’m expecting myself to maintain.

This week, I encountered a lot of stumbling blocks in my thinking that are keeping me from moving forward into what I know is for me.

In this season in my life, I’m being stretched in every area of my life. Even in the areas in which there isn’t a great demand, there is demand nonetheless.

I want to be better than I was yesterday and today, because who I want to be tomorrow is going to require something different from me.

This has been a season of immense growth for me. The growth hasn’t always shown up through intense trials. Sometimes, it’s been learning how to receive good things or opportunities.

It’s been a process. In this process, I’ve not always been able to see the end from the beginning. I’m currently living in a state of existence in which there is no resolve.

In other words, I don’t always receive answers for my questions. I don’t always know if something worthwhile will come of my efforts. I don’t always feel heard. I don’t always feel valued. I don’t always feel secure. I’m not always sure.

However, I believe this process in which I find myself is a step in the right direction. It’s a part of a maturation process. I’m not allowing myself to suppress tough questions about which I was once sure or unspeakable flaws I discover in myself.

There is still something in me that’s holding on to Philippians 1:6; “He who began a good work in you is faithful to complete it.”

So, to be honest, I’d rather be honest. Everything I write about on this blog, I am challenged first to believe or grapple with. Before it is ever posted, I have to confront wrong thinking or hindrances in my life. I’m realizing that in order to grow, I must first be honest and transparent about where I find myself.

May you have the courage to do the same.

Happy reading!

Over and out.

 

 

I’m Frustrated…

I’m frustrated with where I am. It’s not particularly bad, but it’s not exactly where I want to be (not just in the future, but at this point in my life). Sometimes I wish I could snap my finger and be there. But, it doesn’t work that way. Some things have to happen between now and then. It’s a process.

“The process”

I think subconsciously, most of us hate this phrase. Our disdain for it speaks to the reality of our impatience and laziness as a society. We want everything NOW. Very rarely are we willing to work/wait for ANYTHING. This is evidenced in the inclination towards convenience (fast food, crash diets, express everything, etc.).

Somehow, in our convenience-oriented culture, very significant virtues have gone right down the drain; our patience, integrity, & authenticity following right along with them.

[I say this with the very same breath that utters words of frustration when McDonald’s doesn’t come through as quickly as I’d like. Like dude, chill. It’s fast food. Even when they’re slow, they’re faster than most. So relax.]

Now, there’s nothing wrong with desiring quality and punctuality. The issue is we forget that oftentimes, quality requires ‘process.’ I started this blog to encourage people to embrace the part of the process they find themselves in. Embrace it. Not so tightly that you declare it your final resting place; but tight enough to where you allow humility, grace, and contentment to be built in you for use in the seasons to come.

Like me, I’m sure some of you are at interesting checkpoints in your process. Every situation has the ability to draw on what’s in you and expose the condition of your heart. So don’t despise any part of the process. There are things you are walking through now that are helping to get rid of negativity in you that cannot stay where you will be later.

Remember, God has a plan. It’s a cliché, but it’s true. The sooner you get used to adhering to His, the more peace you will have at any stage of your process. Remember, success is not some far away thing to achieve when everyone is lined up to notice and give you shout-outs. Success comes in how we live our everyday life. Success is now.

Additionally, success looks different for everyone. It doesn’t always include a stage or a ridiculously enlarged bank account, or global notoriety. To live someone else’s version of success is not success at all. For it is failure to complete YOUR purpose.
But, I understand. There is always pressure to achieve a certain type of success. But don’t let the pressure of people’s opinions cause you to despise where you are now. Be humble. Embrace the process. Treasure the success you achieve every day. Walk uprightly. For it is not truly success unless God declares it is.

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Why I Started A Blog

The following is what I was going to write as my first blog post. My computer crashed and I lost access to all of my blog posts. Since then, I have changed the name to “sensible fool.” However, I believe the following still embodies the purpose of this blog. So read on. Por favor.

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So…I’m starting a blog. It’s been a long time coming, but I wanted to wait until I was certain I was doing it for the right reason and that it would be ultimately beneficial in the lives of my future readers. I’m aware many people are not surprised by my move to this. “Darveiye, you have so much to say, you should start a blog!” If I had a dollar for every time I’ve heard someone say that…

I’d have three dollas and some change (at least 27 cents).

Needless to say, I never thought having a lot to say was a good enough reason to start a blog. One. Some things are better left unsaid. Two. It can cause a person to believe they are the final authority on certain issues. Three. It’s ultimately self-destructive to think of yourself that way; which leads me to the purpose for this blog. I’m sure you caught the bi-line.

“Introspection per His direction…”

But whatever does it mean? Introspection, in essence, is the practice of self-observation. ‘His’ or ‘Him’ is God; thereby meaning God is the very lens by which we look within ourselves. Additionally, we adjust ourselves according to what He says and He requires. Secondly:

Raising the standard.

I have found, as have many of you, if we continue to do the same things over and over again, we remain exactly where we started. There are things to be done in this world that have never been done and we will never get them done doing the same thing over and over. Ask Einstein.

Given my track record, one or more of these blog posts will offend you. Heck, I offend myself as I’m writing them. But that’s not always a bad thing. If we’re never offended, we’re never challenged to grow. And if we’re never challenged to grow, we won’t change. And if we don’t change, the world around us remains the same. And by the looks of it, that’s not really an option.

So yes. I’m starting a blog and it’s about each and every one of us. The purpose is to challenge us all to inspect and adjust ourselves before we attempt to do the same to others. History shows us that real change happens when the faces in the mirror are changed first! But remember, this isn’t about becoming ‘good’ people. The world has enough of those. There’s good in all of us. But good isn’t always God even though God is always good.

So let’s be introspective. But let’s not leave out the second half. It’s for us to live the way He says we should. So we seek Him.

I hope you enjoy reading as we journey together as sensible fools in a senseless world.

 

Thanks for reading!

Be blessed.

Over and Out.